(Psalms 55:18) He hath delivered my soul in peace from the battle that was against me: for there were many with me.
When I think about the Lord and all He's done for me, my soul cries out HALLELUJAH! When I look back over my life and I think things over, I can truly say, that I've been blessed!
When I think about the Lord and all He's done for me, my soul cries out HALLELUJAH! When I look back over my life and I think things over, I can truly say, that I've been blessed!
Woman of God, If you look back over your life and think about all the tears that you've cried, all the times you just had to fall to your knees, all the times that you thought that you couldn't take another step, think about all the times that you were in a situation and God's mercy keep you alive. There were times in your life that your mother may have chosen a boyfriend over your well being.
I'll go a little further. There were times in my life that I had cried so many tears, and thought I should have run out of tears. There were times in my life that I could have taken the wrong drugs and overdosed. There were times in my life that I could have caught a disease that was not curable with a shot. There were times in my life that I could have been raped because I trusted men too much. There were times in my life where I didn't look my age because of drug use. There were times in my life that I did not have sex with a man unless he had money to pay for my time. Now, I am not saying that I was a prostitute on a corner, but what I did was prostituted myself in a more classy way (so I thought). I was just the kind of woman that men desired and I used my looks to get whatever I wanted from them. I was very good at manipulated men.
I am telling you this because I know that I am not the only one in the ministry that has done something that they should not have or should not be doing when it comes to men. This is a powerful as well as a shameful testimony. But I have to be honest with you as I promised in the beginning of the start of this ministry.
The end of this testimony is even better. It was God's mercy and grace that has given me another chance at life. God's had to have had His hands on my life because I know that it was only God that kept me alive and safe through all my mess, mistakes and shortcomings. God loved me even when I thought that I wasn't lovable. God had to reach way down in the mud to get me (I mean way down). I thought that I was too far gone from God and He would never accept me back. But through God's mercy He decided that I was worth saving. You are worth saving. My life was not always on the road to Jesus. I was not always the type of woman that a person would come to for prayer. I was not always the type of woman that could be used by God. It has taken me more than half my life to become a godly woman. Not that I have achieved all that God desires of me, but I am striving toward the mark of the high calling on my life. I have finally started to walk on the path that is fulfilling God's purpose and perfect will for my life.
I want you to know that no matter where you come from, no matter what demonic spirits you have dealt with, it is only God that will bring you out of a life of shame. Something that you would never want anyone to know, God knows and He still wants you. God uses me to be a living testimony for His glory. Without any shame because Jesus Christ died for my sins and sits at the right hand of God the Father, pleaded my case before Him. It is Jesus Christ that speaks in the ear of God the Father and tells Him that you are usable, you will come out of shame, you are worth His mercy. It is ultimately Jesus Christ that tells God the Father that you will become a living testimony and will have compassion on other women that may be living a life of shame. God's mercy kept you through the tough times and it is His mercy that says you can never go too far from Him, His eyes are on the sparrow and He watches over you. Praise God, Amen!
Heavenly Father, I thank you for keeping me safe. Even when I did not act like your child and even when I did things that not even I am proud of Your mercy sustained. Father thank You for forgiving me and turning my life around. I love You Father, in Jesus name, Amen.
I'll go a little further. There were times in my life that I had cried so many tears, and thought I should have run out of tears. There were times in my life that I could have taken the wrong drugs and overdosed. There were times in my life that I could have caught a disease that was not curable with a shot. There were times in my life that I could have been raped because I trusted men too much. There were times in my life where I didn't look my age because of drug use. There were times in my life that I did not have sex with a man unless he had money to pay for my time. Now, I am not saying that I was a prostitute on a corner, but what I did was prostituted myself in a more classy way (so I thought). I was just the kind of woman that men desired and I used my looks to get whatever I wanted from them. I was very good at manipulated men.
I am telling you this because I know that I am not the only one in the ministry that has done something that they should not have or should not be doing when it comes to men. This is a powerful as well as a shameful testimony. But I have to be honest with you as I promised in the beginning of the start of this ministry.
The end of this testimony is even better. It was God's mercy and grace that has given me another chance at life. God's had to have had His hands on my life because I know that it was only God that kept me alive and safe through all my mess, mistakes and shortcomings. God loved me even when I thought that I wasn't lovable. God had to reach way down in the mud to get me (I mean way down). I thought that I was too far gone from God and He would never accept me back. But through God's mercy He decided that I was worth saving. You are worth saving. My life was not always on the road to Jesus. I was not always the type of woman that a person would come to for prayer. I was not always the type of woman that could be used by God. It has taken me more than half my life to become a godly woman. Not that I have achieved all that God desires of me, but I am striving toward the mark of the high calling on my life. I have finally started to walk on the path that is fulfilling God's purpose and perfect will for my life.
I want you to know that no matter where you come from, no matter what demonic spirits you have dealt with, it is only God that will bring you out of a life of shame. Something that you would never want anyone to know, God knows and He still wants you. God uses me to be a living testimony for His glory. Without any shame because Jesus Christ died for my sins and sits at the right hand of God the Father, pleaded my case before Him. It is Jesus Christ that speaks in the ear of God the Father and tells Him that you are usable, you will come out of shame, you are worth His mercy. It is ultimately Jesus Christ that tells God the Father that you will become a living testimony and will have compassion on other women that may be living a life of shame. God's mercy kept you through the tough times and it is His mercy that says you can never go too far from Him, His eyes are on the sparrow and He watches over you. Praise God, Amen!
Heavenly Father, I thank you for keeping me safe. Even when I did not act like your child and even when I did things that not even I am proud of Your mercy sustained. Father thank You for forgiving me and turning my life around. I love You Father, in Jesus name, Amen.
