Hello Mighty Woman of God! I pray that you are blessed by our Lord Jesus Christ and that you will follow after Him everyday. Make everyday of your life count for something in the Kingdom of Heaven.
(Isaiah 41:9-10), I took you from the ends of the earth, from its farthest corners I called you. I said, 'You are My servant; I have chosen you and have not rejected you. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
With this testimony, I fought with God like Jonah. "Lord, is there something else that I can tell? Lord, this is a mistake and something that I want to keep for myself. I don't want anyone to ever know that about me. God reminded me that it's not about me, it's about the ministry and those that will read today's message.
Even after teaching Bible Study, preaching on Sundays and striving to do what is right and keep God besides me, I mess up big time. While living in Las Vegas, I not only had to deal with the demonic spirit of gambling but I had to deal with my anger issues. Mind you, my life changed dramatically when I left Chicago.
I was definitely in my darkest hour. I never thought that the Lord would still be watching out for me. So even though He called me, anointed me, set me aside for His glory, I MESS UP. What I learned during that period of time (38 days and 37 nights), God still got the glory. I ended up in 3 different jails, facing charges in each one. But the one thing that I kept saying to my family was, "God is keeping me comfortable". When He could have turned His back on me for straying so far away, He didn't.
I ended up teaching bible study, which the Lord used me greatly to blessed the women, there were over 20 women that I ministered to. Even when I was tired, they helped me along the way. With no money to pay me, my bed was always made by someone. They would order goodies for me and even make sure that I had tea every night. God used me in a might way and I was comfortable. There were even times that I laughed harder than I had in a long time. The second move was lock down in a cell for 22 or 23 hours a day. Still God kept me comfortable, He really did. I read more and during my 1 to 2 hours out, the women surrounded me to pray for them or to tell them what God had to say to them. I should have lost my mind staying in a cell for over 22 hours a day, but I didn't.
What you should get from this is that I messed up. I had to pay the price according to the law but according to God's law He didn't leave me alone. He set the ground work for me before I was born and He knew that I was going to go to jail someday (I didn't but He did). The difference between the saints of God and those that are not saved is that God will keep you comfortable, no matter what, even in your darkest hour. Even when you mess up so bad, He will keep you comfortable. The above scripture applies to you and to me. If you find that you are in your darkest hour repeat that scripture to yourself and believe it with your whole heart and soul. PRAISE GOD!
Heavenly Father I thank You and give you all the praise for keeping, even in my darkest hour. Thank You for keeping me comfortable even when I mess up. Lord I pray that I receive Your love and forgiveness when I ask and I thank You that You uphold me with Your right hand and cover me securely with Your left hand. Father I pray that You help me to forgive myself as You have forgiven me, in Jesus name, Amen.
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