I speak blessings of the fullness of the Holy Spirit upon your life. I pray that you are all blessed and highly favored of the Lord Jesus Christ.
(Psalms 32:1-2), Blessed is he whose transgressions are forgiven; whose sins are covered. Blessed is the man whose sin the Lord does not count against him and in whose spirit is no deceit.
There was a time in my life where I thought that I was too dirty and filthy to go to God in prayer. I felt that my sexual sins and my drug abuse had kept me out of the Lord of Christ. Maybe this has never happened to you or maybe you have not been through what I have, so I will just tell you my story today. When I was doing so much sin on a day to day basis, there was no way that I would even have the nerve to get on my knees and prayer to God. Why should I ask for forgiveness for something that I know that I will do again tomorrow? Why should I ask the Lord for protection, when I know that I will go places and do things that I should not do? Why would God watch over me, when I am premiscious and on drugs? These were all of my concerns and the excuses as to why I could not pray. To me, the worst thing about my life was that I knew the Lord, or at least I thought I did. I knew that He loved me, but I was not aware of the word unconditional. When I look back over my life and the horrible things that I did, I would not have ever seen myself writing a book or ministering to women to help get them through difficult issues in their lives. I stole, drank, slept around and did drugs, "too dirty to pray", is what I thought I was at the time. I believed that God was disgusted with me, after all, I sure was.
I was ashamed of myself. Shame is the deep sense that you are unacceptable by friends, family and by God; because of something you did or by something that was done to you. Even if you were sexually abused that can cause you to be in deep shame. Shame keeps you from the love of God, because you don't think that you deserved any better. Shame keeps you from praying to the Lord because of how you feel about yourself, NOT HOW GOD FEELS ABOUT YOU. Let me say that again so that you will get that down in your spirit, shame keeps you from praying to the Lord because of how you feel about yourself, NOT HOW GOD FEELS ABOUT YOU.
Jesus Christ is not a man, He is God-in-the-flesh. He took all your shame and sin and nailed it on the cross when He died. The scripture says that your sin is covered and that is because of the blood of the Lamb of God (Jesus Christ). Your sins are forgiven, and that is because of the blood of the Lamb of God (Jesus Christ). As long as your spirit is not deceitful before God, you are blessed. Jesus Christ has always touched the ones in the bible that no one else would. He cleansed the leper, He didn't mind when the woman with the issue of blood touch the hem of His garment because of His compassion. GOD SAYS TO YOU TODAY, GO IN PEACE MY DAUGHTER, YOUR FAITH HAS MADE YOU WHOLE. PRAISE GOD! AMEN!