Wednesday, September 3, 2014


Good morning, Mighty Woman of God!  I pray that you are all safe, blessed and highly favored by our Lord Jesus Christ.

"There is no way she has done half the things that I've done; God will not look at me the same"

"God did it for me, He will do it for you"

You've either heard that or you thought that phrase in your mind.  I can remember while at the lowest point of my life hearing a woman preaching and saying, "God did it for me and He will do it for you".  I'm shouting and praising God for my deliverance, my relief and my release but in the back of my mind, I'm thinking, "No God will not do it for me.  My case is totally different.  I'm sure you've never been where I've been.  I have literally sat with the devil on occasions, nope my case is different.  I'm just at this retreat hoping and not really believing".

So, for those of you that are new to this ministry and for those that I need to remind, I am going to throw myself under the bus again to give you my testimony.  You are never 'too far gone' if you keep that glimmer of hope open.  Don't close that window.  Each time

Each day I loaded my body with drugs (cocaine, marijuana) and alcohol, being very specific each day I still prayed.  I was not taking advantage of God's grace and His mercy, I was accepting it.  I never just viewed God as just being God, I viewed Him as my Heavenly Father.  And I mean Father in every aspect of that word, His love.  I did so much cocaine in my late 20's early 30's that I should be or could have been dead.  I put cocaine on my weed and put it in my cigarettes. 

I'm telling you about me, who I was.  So don't ever look at me as some super-saint or a woman who hasn't been through some rough and tough times.  I will never forget where I came from because it's my testimony.  Where I came from is a part of who I am.  I am choosing to make that good.

So I'm not special.  God has blessed me with spiritual gifts that I need for you.  To bring you out of darkness, to carry you, to teach you, comfort you and pray for you and with you.  You are never too far gone.  God saw what I didn't see.  God sees what you don't see.  God doesn't love me anymore than He does you.  The difference may be having a relationship with Him.  If your mother and father found out that you were addicted to drugs, prescription meds or whatever, they would not disown you.  God will not disown you and His love for you is more than your mother and father.

I'm not special, no more than you, I just kept praying even when I was addicted.  I left that window open, even if it was just cracked, it was open.  My sister, woman of God, no matter what, leave that window open, you'll find your way back, I promise.

Heavenly Father I pray right now that your message is received as a blessing a glimmer of hope for your people.  I pray Father that you cover them, keep them safe as they go through life.  Father I pray that you blessed them where they are Lord whatever chapter of life they may be, blessed them Father and send your angels to encamp around them, in Jesus name, Amen.